YOU BROKE MY HEART

Have you ever...

x. Fallen for your best friend- no ?
x. Made out with JUST a friend – lol I was about to ask if girls count but uhherm ... ... lol uhh ..
x. Been rejected – Soon, from colleges .
x. Been in love – No . I used to be, with my Japanese school teacher ! And, well, Zanannza will always be the love of my life .
x. Used someone – lol not that I can think of .
x. Been used – ^^^
x. Been cheated on – I don't think so ?
x. Done something you regret – Yeah . Obviously .

Last person...
x. You touched – Most definetly someone in the family, seeing how I haven't been out of my house for the past 3 days .
x. You talked to – Kristi
x. You instant messaged - I dunno, I haven't gone on AIM in like a month .
x. You yelled at – my mom .
x. You laughed with – Kristi . I mean, she's the last person I talked to .
x. Who broke your heart – Red River . <-- Obsessed ? Yes . But really, that series shattered my heart . I cried .


Do you...
x. Color your hair – DUUUUH . But I want to dye it orangeish brown .
x. Have tattoos – No, and I don't want to .
x. Piercings – No, but I kind of want piercings in my ear .
x. Have a girlfriend/boyfriend - No .
x. Floss daily – Almost .
x. Own a webcam - Mmhm . I would post more pictures on myspace, but right now, my webcam is kind of dead .
x. Sprechen sie deutsche - Your mom .
x. Habla espanol – No .

Random...
x. Considered a life of crime – ...Huh ?
x. Considered being a hooker - No, but my mom tells me I dress like one .
x. Considered being a pimp – No, not really .


Think you are...
x. insane – Not really .
x. Split personalities – No . This survey is getting rather pointless .
x. Obsessive – Over Red River .
x. Obsessive compulsive – I wash my hands a lot but that's about it .

x. Panic – Sometimes . When I panic, it's like, crazy .
x. Anxiety – ... No .
x. Depressed – Sometimes, for no reason .
x. Suicidal – No . Like I never thought about commiting suicide .
x. Obsessed with hate – No o.O;
x. What are you listening to – Uher right now, The Polyphonic Spree
x. Can you do anything freakish with your body – Uuum . My toung . I can fold it over . But that's nnot really all that interesting . Oh oh and I can pretend like I have lazy eye . But my eye doctor told me not to do it tho .
x. Chicken or fish – Oof . I don't know . I guess chicken but I don't really like chicken .
x. Do you have a favorite animal? Liger . lol jk, I love cats .
x. Current Mood - Eh . I was supposed to start studying three hours ago but instead I wasted my time online .
x. Current Taste – uhm . Colgate . The toothpaste .
x. Current Hair – covering my eyes .
x. Current thing I ought to be doing – STUDYING !!#$@#$# OMFG . I'm going to fail calculus .
x. Current Desktop Picture – lol it's default . I'm sorry I'm so boring . I used to be obsessed with my desktop . It was always either really trendy or cute . Now, I don't really care .
x. Current Favorite Group – Uh . Mindless Self Indulgence . I don't know . That was a random pick from my playlist .
x. Current Book – I think I'm supposed to be reading Hamlet .
x. Current Refreshment – Hot tea . The Japanese way ! Shibui ocha suki <3 .
x. Current Worry – Calculus, and art .
x. Current Crush – my Wade .



Are you...
x. Understanding – Uh . Unless you're pathetic and pitiful like so many teenage girls on live/deadjournals . Then no . I'll just laugh at you . "Oh why can't I have you back !" "I see how happy everyone is and now I understand why I don't fit in !" "No one understands me ! No one is ever there for me !" I wonder if those people realize how rude they're being to their friends .
x. Open-minded – No . I'm actually pretty narrow-minded . But I'm not completely obstinate, you just have to do a really good job being eloquent and convincing me . Well at least I think I'm more open-minded than Kristi :P
x. Interesting – Not really .
x. Hungry – I always am . And even when I'm not hungry, I eat when I see food . No wonder why I get so fat .
x. Friendly - Kind of .
x. Smart - Not really .
x. Moody – No ! Like, even when I'm really moody, I don't act it . Like you know how sometimes you see someone in the hallway and you say hi to them and if they're in a bad/grumpy mood, they'll barely give you a hi back ? I never do that . I'll always just up and down and wave frantically .
x. Childish – Uuum when I want to be .
x. Independent – Uh . Sometimes, I just want to be alone, but that doesn't mean independent, does it . So, no .
x. Hard working – lol are you kidding me .
x. Organized – No . lol Beginning of the year, I started out with three notebooks seperating them into subjects, but now it's just jumbled into a one big mess . Like one page would be mythology and the next would be physics .
x. Shy – When I'm around people I don't know I never talk .
x. Difficult – Uh . Sometimes . But I don't think so .
x. Bored Easily – Yeah . I get easily amused and easily bored at the same time .
x. Thirsty – Right now ? No .
x. Responsible – Uuum well I would like to think I'm responsible in yearbook but that's about it .
x. Sad – Didn't like an identical question show up somewhere above ?
x. Happy – Not really . When I'm done with college shit, then maybe I won't be as stressed .
x. Trusting – Yeeees . *shifty eyes* .
x. Talkative – Yeah .

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OMG JORDAN has SUCH a big mouth !! That gossip queen ! And supposedly, Bisland told him to tell me to shut up . *gasp* Oh no, now I think I have to go cry .

So, so far, I have a sister, a grandpa, and hm, is that it actually ? Well a new member to the family: my adoptive father .

Early Merry Christmas, everyone . Not that I'm in the mood for holiday happiness right now . I hate school .

I hate Edwards, I hate Edwards, I hate Edwards . So much for staying up all nite studying . And you know what I'm going to say to him !! "Well, I could've taken it yesterday." Yeah, that's right . Right back at his face . ...If I see him .

So yeah, I've been kind of randomly announcing to people that I'm going Cancun . lol Caitlin said that's as random as the time I said I'm going to Las Vegas for winter break . I think Las Vegas/LA is the worst place to go under 21 . Everything is just so plastic . I hated it there .

I also want to kill myself over college applications . I also think I'm seeing a final draft to my common app essay; it's quite different from my original one, and that's okay because the original contained numerous run-ons and unecessarily corpulent sentences . Who cares about prose, man . WHO . CARES . lol to sum up my college-encompassing-week:
me: Oh my god . What am I going to do if I don't get accepted to any colleges here ??
Kristi: You can go to Japan and pretend like it never happened .

So bye for 8 days or whatever . I'm going to Mexico .

You know, I only strive under stress . Lately, I've been thinking that's the only motivation I have . Stress .

And now, I'm beginning to kind of get worried that I'm not going to get accepted to Uconn or Northeastern or Dickinson . When Olaf IMed me like two years ago in a state of depression saying something along the lines of, "I don't think I'm going to get in to Uconn," I was like, "Wow Olaf, you're going to get accepted to Uconn, because no one gets rejected from Uconn ." But now I'm beginning to doubt my own chances of getting into some college in United States, and lol . ... I mean, the only reason why I applied (actually, I need to *start* applying) to safety schools is because I would feel really bad about myself if I get rejected to all the schools I actually want to go to . Although . I kind of want to go to Northeastern . I've heard so many good things about that school . They have a graphic design major . That's so cool .

I need to watch Schindler's List ... God damn it .

Oh, and it turns out that I, afterall, am going to murder Wilkes because today, he was like, "Hey guys, I'm thinking about a quiz tommorow or Friday ..." . I was like "asdfakljsdfklsdjf GOD DAMN YOU WEEWEE !!!!"

Oh oh, and yesterday, I was still mad at Prerna for kicking my icecream from the day before, so when Prerna came in the yearbook office, upon seeing her face, I was like ...
me: Prerna, I hate you .
Prerna: You look cute today .
me: Aww, thanks <3 .
lolol and then Dustin butts in and he was like, "No she doesn't . She looks ugly ." And Prerna starts hitting Dustin and she was like, "Don't say that to Yumi !!" And I was like "....Awwww look Prerna's sticking up for me !!" . and Dustin was like, "Wow, you've got Prerna sticking up for you . That's like Bush when he said, *Dustin speaks in a sarcastic but defiant manner* "We've got Poland on our side !!" . Hahaha . That was a good one, no ?

Oh wanna hear something funny that Bush said ? Actually, the caption is like the punchline . From TIME: "I want to thank the Canadian people who came out to wave--with all five fingers--for their hospitality." President Bush, on the response to his trip to Canada, where opposition to the U.S. President and the war in Iraq has been strong

For Caroline:



GUESS WHAT ! Katy loves Red River ! Well obviously, because it's like the best girl manga out there . Katy as in Katy-in-my-section . I was like, "Hurry up and read volume 3 because it gets even better ." lol I felt so bad when on ... Monday, I mooched off a ride from a kid I didn't even know, and there were like 4 other people in the car, and I saw Katy walking near Marissa's, and I was like, "Oh my god, is that Katy ? Oh ! It is !" And Yury (lol he's so funny ("Hi, I uh, would like to buy some cigarettes for these younger children over here ...")) puts down the window and shouts out, "HEY KATY ! YOU'RE PIMPIN' !!" And I was like, "OMG stop !! Do you even know her ?" and he was like, "No ."

Day by day, I get more and more convinced that Edwards is a bad teacher . He just says the same hackneyed shit every single fucking day to start the class . "This class requires higher order thinking ." or "Learning is cumulative ." I don't think he even knows what he's talking about . I should've embarassed him by saying that a problem can't be clandestine . I mean wtf, the word clandestine is usually associated with government-affliated things anyway . And even if it wasn't, how can an information in a physics problem be secretive ??

Okay, okay, I'm going to shut up and stop not making any sense and go watch Schindler's List so I can write my fricken 3-5 page essay due tommorow for Shakespeare .

MBisS2000SF: thanks
MBisS2000SF: that always makes me feel better
MBisS2000SF: to know somewhere some girl
MBisS2000SF: was thinking about me
MBisS2000SF: in the shower

lol I swear to *god* that Elisa is using me to talk to Jordan . She comes floating around near me only when I'm talking to Jordan . Jordan is the ladies man .

In the meanwhile, I promised 5 additional people that I am going to make CDs for them .

This week is going to be suicidal . So far, I know that on Wednesday I have a Shakespeare in class essay test for a book I barely read, on Thursday I have a Physics test as well as the Shakespeare 3-5 pages essay, and on Friday I have the Mythology project due . And if Wilkes decides to give us a quiz or something on top of that, I am going to murder him .

Speaking of which, I seriously felt like killing Prerna today in the yearbook office . She was being so obnoxious . She was fooling around with Dustin and kicked me . in my hand . When I was holding an ice cream .

I really want to go back to Japan .

lafre i sia: holy fuck isn't that amazing
lafre i sia: like i was like "wowaaah !!!"
lafre i sia: that just blew my mind away
MAD GOHAN 13: God, I hate you so much
MAD GOHAN 13 signed off at 15:39:17.

Jordan hates me . *tear* .

lol not really . I don't care . This is totally exciting !

guac amole moose: and you know that game where people throw a ball at the wall
guac amole moose: oh I think it's called Wallball
lafre i sia: lol
lafre i sia: yeah
guac amole moose: yeah well
guac amole moose: they were playing that with an eraser today
guac amole moose: at math team
guac amole moose: before wilkes got there.
guac amole moose: lol..
guac amole moose: and then they knocked some pipe thing down
guac amole moose: lol and taped it back up
guac amole moose: and when Wilkes was talking
lafre i sia: LOL
guac amole moose: it fell off the wall again
lafre i sia: hahahahaha
guac amole moose: lol and he just sort of stopped talking
guac amole moose: and then he turned around slowly.
guac amole moose: and Jason was like "WHOA wouldja look at that!"
guac amole moose: Wilkes: ....what were you doing in here..?"
guac amole moose: Jason: "no we really don't know. that's the first time it's done that."
guac amole moose: Wilkes: "....well somebody tried to tape it back up..."

kolobos 3 0 0 0: lol i want him to pay for mine